i guess i had been too tired the past few days and today. i slept through the whole day after i came back, through dinner and through my planned study time... -.- i could have covered at least a chapter of math man... sigh. then now waiting for my instant noodles to boil. hahah... anw, gb today was kinda tiring, considering that i had only less than 5 hours of sleep, then had drills for almost the whole of gb. long commands were kinda confusing... anw, met elaine regina shannon and gwen cause they went for netball training. regina went home cause she was going to the edge, then we went mac cause i was hungry, then left elaine and i, and we went to popular. we kept on laughing cause elaine was being retarded... then laughlaughlaugh until i think i took the wrong pad. suppose to take graph pad, but the cover on top put section pad and the squares inside are bigger and i oni realised when i got home. clever me. so wasted 1.90.. gna buy on monday again..anw, off to eat. hahah..
ciaoz



hm, i think i've not been blogging for a very long time..anw pass 3 days were all training and my legs had totally become jelly. ytd had 120 squats and 50++ half-court shuttle run.. then today, 200 times dribble but u follow the ball, knees 45 degree lydat. then walk halfway oso will like going to fall anytime.. hahah. but was fun overall.. anw, im damn tired and hungry.. and i have history test tmr and math hw.. sigh!



For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his
good purpose.
-Philippians 2:13 (NIV)

today's bible verse. isit meant to be what im thinking off? or just im too creative to fit it in.. idk isit God speaking to me, or satan putting insane thoughts in my head. i only wished im devoted enough to build a relationship so close that i'd know.. sigh!
today bball coach totally scare me.. i shooting for fun, playplay very happy, suddenly ask me go to him. then i in my heart think : die la die la, sure sth abt bball. so i go, then he on the spot teach me how to shoot then ask me go the net shoot. one time, two time, three times, four. then he readily said 'xing qi yi ni lai' then everyone was like 'ohhhh!' scary la~ i really feel like learning, but ofcourse, which cca to sacrifice? GB, over my dead body. VB? cant, mr aw got expectations for me. PA? last choice. so many things, my studies leiiii? sheesh! i really dont know, bballers dont come tempt me anymore k, let me think first....

tag replies(sorry i lazy go all ur blogs :X) :
drey : hahah! me love it too!
roseanne : rightttt! my green tea! when ah when ah?? hahha!
jiaxin : hahah! yeahhhh~ longtimeee.
sharifah : nahhh, where got good?? its bad,plus what else can a blocker do? hahah, must have something else thats good oso mah, which i dont. heee.
lingting : hahah! yeahhh, but go match wont be so easy alr. :/ anw, no prob (:
peizhen : loll! thanks.
drey : hahah! thanks! ^^ i think some i'd do okay. some nottt...
rurong : LOL! eee, who want team up with u uh?? i want with elaine, dongfangxiang and W will win u okay k! :D
daniel : hahah, heyy. thanks (:




heh!

hello readers.

church was fine today. brought my lil niece to churh today, last week brought both my niece and newphew, but this wk my nephew lazy wake up. im glad that they are willing and enjoying going to church at such a young age, i hope they'll continue going, regularly. cause my aunt says, last time my brother joined cherubim choir, then join bl.in.g then the youth worship team, then after him, i oso joined choir, bling then youth worship team. so is like having 'jie ban ren'.. hahah! so if they do come regularly, maybe i'll have 'jie ban ren' too. hahah.. then had lahu meeting, we had to choreograph dance for the trip. then went for lunch and stuff. dint managed to go for service. then homed.. and something random, i walked past the place where the teachers are going to have their teachers' day dinner this year. its freaking near my house. LOL! cause i saw the flyers created by aril. ^^ anw,
ciaoz.

tags replies :
roseanne : .... you're retarded! LOL
nicole : hahah! i know. ^^
rurong : LOL! i actually forgotten what we're talking about.. :P
drey : hahah! yeahhh.
phylisia : hahah, thanks (: i will try.
nicole : where gotttt?? have luh!
lingting : hahah, relinked. and yeah, seeyou nxt training. I FREAKING LOVE THE NEW NET IN THE INDOOR HALL!!!!
roseanne : hahah! muscles!! anw, relinked (: i know, i like it too. ^^v
gwen : hahah, relinked. eheheh, i got my shy times one luh! tsk...
drey : Hello darlingggg ^^ like the new pic i posted? :P
rurong : hahah! sure, wait i call my best partner, elaine koh u sure mati oneeee ^^v hahah, see you soon too! tc! (:



hello peeps.

woke up with serious thigh muscle aches this morning.. guess it was all cause of basketball. 3 pointers and stuff. did i mention ytd that after playing for the whole day, and after reaching khatib mrt, i went to play bball alone near my house? okay, i know thats crazy.. anw currently at aunt's house, had gathering just now. didnt managed to go ask for donations. lol, cause im shy la, :$ hah, kidding. then had dinner and stuff, and now im using the time to do some work.
tmr will be a fineeee day. and i hope i can get more $$ heh. anw,ciaoz. back to work.
tag replies soon, links soon too.



hello peeps.
ytd and today were fun ttm! (:
basketball and volleyball, i think it has either niccotine/caffine, addictive. LOL. ytd we played with mr aw in the indoor sports hall and saw the new net, EXCITED man! cant wait for training. mr aw taught us spike properly and digging. play until quite late. then homed.

today, ndp celebration. many retarded stuff happened. but veh funny, hahah! esp, mseleora and mrmarc. then, i whole day nvr eat anything except a chickenchop bun and a bread. then go play basketball. hard core one somemore, played with the bball people at first, then later played with alvin and sampson. then the last ball of the game to win must shoot 3 pointer, and i did. woots! then elaine and i keep trying till we could and we did. :D:D then played horse and stuff. i exercised more than i ate. :X then super hungry, tired and felt every where super jelly, no strength.. then went mac, cause i damn hungry, then ate, joked and elaine and i finally solved this math question that we once solved, but forgot the solution. then homed, damn tired. lucky tmr no gb...



reality hits me in the face, harder than i had expected.

knowing that i had not put in much efforts to study, i did nothing much about it. and so, today i got back 2 papers. history, math. thinking that i might have scored well for history, but i did not. having just 1.5marks more than the passing mark isnt good enough for me. math, was definately worst. once again, i had this image in my mind that i'd at least get a pass, ofcourse i did not. ashamed and utter disappointment. i used lots of effort to force back the tears, caused by shock and disgrace. i was too proud.

perhaps i really did not put in much efforts to study, or maybe its just a simple reason. im just too dumb to understand. math, the one subject that i thought i would do well. but ofcourse i did not. i tried i tried, i tried my best to understand the chapter. but i still couldnt understand it, even when friends,teachers helped, i just couldnt get it into my head. idk whats wrong, i used to score As even for math, the one subject i was proud to have accomplished such results just because i sucked at it during primary school. i guess im back to square one. on the verge of giving up, but i know i cant.

Geography, is shit. what a nice teacher to relief mrs yip. what a nice teacher. i cant understand a single shit, now receiving the other two results, i couldnt pin on high hopes anymore. least i fall back and feel more disappointment. all i can do now is pray for the best and have that little self-discipline to f*ing study. i realised i have been wasting my time all these while, doing nothing but shit.

i deserve no one's help, because i caused all these myself. just say byebye to top 3.
reality,indeed, smacked hard on my face. more than i would have expected.
fuck.



hello people.
today was cool, had service and stuff. and i collected arnd $60 plus from church (: now got $99. i hope the card can last till next week cause the coming saturday i got family gathering.. hahah..
anw, i seriously need motivation and self-discipline to study man.. ): like i nvr really put in effort to study, even knowing tht i cmi for geog if i dont study with such tcher... geez! i really really need to put in effort man.. tsk.