alright,i've made some changes to wordpress blog. i changed url. haha, i decided to make some riddle? hehs. abit lame, but, i dun care.lol
url clue : remove the right eye.
dun understand? jus come ask me luh,simple as tht. jus the same phrase,
happy guessing! :D

Alvinez was here ^^



hey people, im using wordpress at the moment cos i cant log in to blogger,but this blog will still be here.i will be posting at wordpress until i can log in to blogger..so if ur're clever enuf,u'll noe the link. not clever enuf, then come ask me lo..goodbye! happy guessing. lol

rhysGOH was here again:DD



i've asked rhys to help me publish this post, so thank u rhys (:
i shall blog starting frm sat.
SAT - 15/11/o8morning,went for GB..then we started drill test...kinda easy though..first was some paper work.sort of a test lydat. then after tht was the drill itself. then was still okay, but huiwen...i think u really are too lenient.. seriously.. lol.then everyone passed. then they talked abt drill stage two and we watched drill 3..hell im glad i was in pri GB and tht wanni taught us more advanced drills during GB. omgomgomg, wanni i love u alot la! if not i oso dno how im supposed to cope man...drill 2 i oni nid learn/rmb the long commands and drill 3 i oni nid rmb the turn right/left when marching and shift position thingy..wahaha...then vicki and shanshan kip asking me to go to sx's b'dae party cos she invited the whole coy. so i went..then we supposed to meet at 5.3o at CWP to find sx's present. then in the end,u noe they wad time come? 6... lol. then i stand there wait and wait,watching my fone the videos. then a few is damn funny de then i at there um chio. then i scared leta got some ppl see liao tot i mad. but obviously i looking at my fone so is watching something right.. lol. then vicki they all came,went to buy present and went sx's house. then after eating, we went to the pool. then kiawei damn funny laaa! we went into the erm..idk how to spell, i think is jakuzi. then we all waking on the sit then water lvl until slightly below my knees. then kiawei fell and she fell right into the middle and she was soked until her chest... then after tht tried to pull sx down but she hug the pillar. then leta audrey and phyllisia came,sx brought them up.. lucky u,escape huh.. lol. then second time,we go inside the jakuzi again. then this time,felicia splash water at kiawei. then kiawei went into the middle of it and walked while splashing water at felicia. then kiawei slipped and lost her footing,then she fell and this time,fell all the way in. her head submerged in water le.. lol! cute right... then we tried to pull dorcas and peiling in. then dorcas like mad woman lydat... LOL! then i kip scooping water and splash at her. haha. then went up,cut cake then went home...
SUN - 16/11/o8actually wanted to go to church..but guess wad,woke up at 9.50+ worship jus ended arnd there. lol.shld be i guess.cos always lifegroup start at 10. so nvm, told my mum i want to go for contempt service at 11.3o. so went out for breakfast and went church..saw lixin,lionel and justin first. haha guess was kinda surprised to see me right.after so many weeks of missing church....okay im guilty,seriously.. ):then went into the kindergarten rm,saw michelle and marissa. stayed there for awhile and went into sanctuary for service...after service,waited for mum and dad to come. then after come liao,went marina barrage to take foto..dad brought the D90..so first few fotos,dad take. then mum dint say anything or ask to see it. then leta i took foto for both of them,then mum said "waitwait,i want to see nice anot." then i said "wahlao,daddy take u dun check,i take then u check" wth luh...if dun trust me then dun ask me take la..my photography skills are much better than urs can.. -.- then dad wanted to hlp me take a solo pic. then i was using hp taking the sea view. then i was like bu shuang lydat,dad can see. so i think he talked to mum cos they were somewher further up the "road" idk wad is tht called.its suspended ubove the sea. haha. then they walked back to where i was.. then went arnd taking fotos,then fountains and exhibits are quie nice :Dthen when i took a second foto,i knew mum's gna say the same thing. then my dad faster cut her and said "aiya go hme then see laaaaa....we have 2 memory card u scared not enuf space meh? last time use flim then nid take properly,now is use memory card. go home see not nice then delete la..." at least dad understands -.- cos he was once considered a photographer himself and im sure he oso got lydat before de.. please uh,dun spoilt my ambition of being a photographer.. -.- then after tht took many photos wif my fone oso..okay not alot la.. but i think they're nice luh.. lol,im not being bhb here okay.haha. then went back to the car. then mum wanted to go to the sth like nonya buffet. then went there,full house. its at bugis there. then went into bugis the shopping centre to find stuff eat..then some unhappy stuff happened,if u want quarrel,dont quarrel in different levels in a shopping centre,i looked like a total fool going up and down the escalator trying to make ends meet.......jus made me freaking angry and made me think of some friendship problems in the past..i was always,ALWAYS the fcking center person..okay enuf of this.. then in the end,dint eat and jus went straight home.. even if got eat oso no appetite la... -.-
TODAY - 17/11/o8in the morning,actually set alarm at 8 so tht i can go CWP and eat breakfast before going to sch..then wake up then blur likes sotong then forgot. then snooze the alarm. ten luckily i woke up naturally at 9.45. then fasterfaster go wash up and change and left at 10. then when reached woodlands mrt, saw elaine and regina waiting. then i tot they waiting for me cos ytd night i told elaine to meet at 10.15 but it wasnt confirmed and i reached there at 10.3o then i turned out tht they were waiting for rhys. LOL! so i went to boots and shoes buy my gummy bears then went to buy curry puff.. then rhys came and we went sch tgt. then hall used by badminton and parade square used by netball then got no where train.then coach wanted to train at bball court but he came into the sch then give us briefing then bus came. so nvm,went up the bus and off we went to hougang sports hall. then i rmb our 'kick some ass' lollipop tht mr i gave us during the previous match..then jus nice elaine oso havent eat. so we opened it on the bus.then eat. then until warm up then finish..wad's amazing abt the lollipop was tht neither me nor elaine felt nervous and we were actually enjoying the warm up..when we reached,i saw junjie! haha! i guess he jus finished his match.then went in see hongkah vs yuying the last set. then our turn.went in do more warm up.then me and elaine still laughing all the way. then match started. i went in to be main six,i forgot i replaced who to be in the main six..oh,roseanne. sorry! then i kept on shouting. cos someone told me tht shouting works.. not shout 'ah' la. shout like jiayou or alert this type. it actually works haha. so when coach called for a half time,i told everyone to kip shouting cos at first oni me the oni one at it was kinda retarded..then they smile? then i told them it'll be more relaxing. so continued. but actually i was trembling inside, ops :X then first set, 8-25,better than CCHY main. hehs. second set,9-25,still better than CCHY main's second set.. then for the first time in the last 2 matches,me and elaine dint feel like crying or anything after the match..and ofcos is will feel a lil sad for me,cos my target was to at least get a double digit. so i told elaine,we fulfilled the previous match's promise,which was to stay strong even after we lost. so on the bus elaine said "wah,mr issac the lollipop really helped..we dint feel very nervous.ask him give us one more on thurs. haha! " then i agreed. lol. yupyup thanks for the lollipop :Dthen we were given time to go to the shop to buy food.then we saw qifa primary the no. 1,2,3. then after getting wad i want,elaine stand beside me. then the QFPS the no. 3 queue up behind me. thn i told elaine.."eheh, want tell the no. 3 she veh cute?" then elaine said okay. then we told the no. 3 she veh cute.then she veh paiseh. she said "ahhh! no la no la..dowan buy liao" but she hide behind one aunty. then we continue say u veh cute. then she rlly put back her drink and went to sit down. then elaine kip looking at her. then saw she tou kan we all then saw elaine looking at her then she um chio then like veh paiseh lydat. she seriously veh cute lo!then we were still joking on the bus wif coach and mdm yati.. haha. then reached sch. CF going the chalet alr i think. then went down the bus then go canteen..raining so cannot go hme mah. so decided to go hall play. then reached hall,saw DMC ppl ad badminton ppl about to leave. then sia la,the hall so dirty...then started wif spiking against the wall. then wah,after spiking,my hand was veh read and veh hot. lol! then played two on two without net. haha. then i kept spiking (not nice ones) then they keep oi-ing me. haha! then after dat the PERSON ask us go away.. -.- then is like say the hall veh dirty. please la,use ur brains can,volleyball got feathers one uh? first time i heard so u noe...-.- and today oso made me change thinking of someone.. i tot the badminton coach was a nice person,cos he came to preach in our bb,gb combined meeting. then leta when tht PERSON called him and asked why the hall lydat. then he say is we all make le..wahlao eh! our ball got feathers sia, wah i dint noe leh... i oso dint noe u were sucha person to blame us lydat. by the time we reached sch the stalls lar closed right,where in the sch can we buy BOTTLED drinks uh?! stupid la. and we oni got so little people we where can drink until so much water.there were dosens of bottles and packed drinks luh, we shui tong isit? use ur butt think oso can la.. -.- ur own trainees do wrong then u want come blame us. wth la...luckily tht PERSON got more brains thn u..ask ur badminton ppl come back clear. please luh,even if he dint noe is u all,we got DMC ppl at there right. no matter how much to try to push the blame away we got evidence and witness right...stupid...fine wadever. i dowan talk alr. this post many unhappy things...
please wan quarrel,think before doing so. im the oni person there incase u dno. there's no korkor arnd to help me okay!and i can tell tht big sotong's not rlly okay,even when i say 'alright' lol...i wonder what happened..i noe its weird for her to share wif me la.. lol. but yknw she always tell me im not alone and all tht...then idk wad to say..tried to help her or sth? like wanted to say wadever she told me.. but oh well,i think im not in the position to say this bah....hehs..


Rhys Goh the purple lollipop was here(:
Hehs, hope jade dun mind i added this:P



hmm,i think the unlucky-ness drags on...

okay,so today morning,went to sch for duty that was supposed to be at 10 plus. but actually go or dun go at 10 plus oso no diff. lol. so i went up lvl 3. to control rm. nobody was there. so i wanted to get the lappie frm mr issac to hlp him change blogskin.. then i figured out tht their first aid course was in ava rm cos last time ours was there. so went to peep and saw them. then solihin came up and he walked over to see oso. then went to get key frm mr tay and open control rm.. then peiting came and both of us went to peep at the first aid course for the tchers..kinda hilarious though. :X then mr i passed me his lappie and i started my 'work' then peiting sit beside me..chose some skins ytd and wanted mr i to choose it himself but he kip asking me to choose..which reminds me of ms e and mr m's deco.. -.- made me quite pekchek...kip telling me "up to u up to u..u choose" then me and u veh different lei..if i do stuff for ppl,i wont think my way,i'll think in tht person's way. so if i noe u rllyrllyrlly well,then good.i noe wad u'll be thinking. lol. then dododo,finish le..went dwn for duty. BORING! nth much to do de...so nearing the end,i decided to go out and snap some shots. lol..then so fast end le lo..so nvm,then they playing wif solihin's lappie. then they go google rhys,issac,marc. then the picture come out super funny. lol! then the mr m say we watching porn.. o.o means he scolding himself la. LOLL! then after tht sat dwn on the floor. lol then got 2 ppl say the same thing " sch got alot of chairs why u all sit on the floor? " one is ms foo,one is,forgot mr m/i .lolll. then after awhile went CWP wif peiting. rhys go cut hair,then asked me want go extension anot. then is like funny lo,i oso nvr bring money for hair? lol. then tot of my spike. but actually my hair long le,but i think still can spike bah..nowadays dint go out le.so nvr go experiment. haha. then after reaching CWP,i feel like munching something. so went mac and bought ice cream..then peiting veh cute lo...
me: u want buy?
peiting : dowan
(i order my ice cream)
peiting : okay i think i want la horh.

LOL! okay,mayb its not funny. but i think it is. haha. then came hme and watched DVDs again (:
arigato mr issac (:
then here is the unlucky part of my day....i tripped,fell and knock my nose..lucky i had my hands to break my fall...then it bled jus a lil bit..then now blueblack..so ugly.. ): hopefully tmr will be goneeee! speaking of tmr...DRILL TEST :O! lol.i guess i'll be able to do well bah...but horh...i scared leta do wrong right.then captain aileen see liao then abit....erm..dno how to say..cos its like im frm pri gb sio...rawr! if oni captain aileen not there see me? teehee...okay,im gna have to face this luh...every yr the drill test sure sama de.. so i dun care who's gna look at me! i dont careeee.lala~ see all u wan.lol! leta i give u heart attack wif my wonderful drills uh! haha! jk..
then i jus had a new nickname for ms e.big sotong. LOL! haha hello big sotong :D:D last time called her sotong and she responded. LOL. then someone called me small sotong. O.O then she big sotong. -.- abit weird right. lol. but its okay. it cute for her to be called BIG SOTONG. HAHA!
alright,gooodbye big sotong,and the rest of my blog readers . xD teehee!



i jus hate that,cold,creepy,alone feeling..God,i dun feel ur majestic presence like i did before..i dont feel ur warmth..why?.. i cant hlp but put on a strong front for ppl..i dun like ppl to see the weak side of me..i dont..who does anyway? but,i noe i wasnt like this before...'smile"smile"smile'...thts all i can do...



today is the THIRTEEN of november..my unlucky day?
i shan dao yao,got several cuts and my hand became worst.
training started super late cos,we dint have a specific place to train,it was drizzling and mrs chong havent come (she had the key). then by the time we started training,it was alr 9 plus.traning supposed to start at 8. lol.then practiced serving all the way till dno when then changed to spike.then elaine and i were playing la.as in we tried jump serve,tried walking infront,throw the ball then whack.tried many serving styles we observed other teams doing.then serving made my arm...heh..thn while doing jump serve,i threw the ball too behind.then i bend back to try to hit.i mean,its natural reaction wad.then 'crack' on sound frm my back and it hurt-ed.. ): then ms tay asked us to hlp carry chairs for tmr's event.then the part to join two chairs tgt was damn sharp T.T i got a bigbig cut on my left thigh and a smaller one beside it,and it really hurts,it sort of pops up somemore..that was when i was using two hands to carry.then my hand hurts,so i used oni my left hand to carry.then i cut my right ankle...then leta,paterlin and wanyu they all playing wif the,forgot wad is it called.they used it to push the chairs one.then paterlin pushed the thing and it slide till it hit my ankle and it cut my left ankle...sigh..today is reallyreally a badbad day...then the help out in DNT the uncle francis,he gave us some bottled mineral water.then i used it to wash my cut,and ofcos got drink la...then elaine see alr kip make the sound as if its her cut then like veh pain.lol! then after that,cos got alot of the skin anrd,then i peel the skin then same reaction came frm rhys. lol. then wanyu and paterlin kip making buck tooth,not purposely but,like listening to us chit chatting then some natural action. then me and lamepartner kip laughing at them.. :X but it was super funny.
then leta,straight after vb training got dmc duty. but i stayed back wif elaine for a lil while wif mrs chong. then mrs chong taught us some spike action and movement. then she practiced it several times wif us then we kept the stuff. now i sort of know how to do it,BUT setter mus make effort to set it everytime. cos its not easy to everytime spike leh.. ): jus kip setting up the second ball will do. someone will hit it over de...haiyo...

tmr,th real sch event. today the rehearsal is B.O.R.E.D!!! nxt time i not camera man,and th even dun sound interesting,i dowan do duty liao.. lol..tmr sure is bored daooooooooooo! alamak..cos the mc wants to rehears several times and some of us have to be there by 10. then the actual thing oni starts at 2.. ms foo a bit kuku.. :X then event will last until arnd 5 plus bah..then actually i wanted to ask some vballers then we play vb. lol but idk they want anot. i dowan lamepartner to come cos i want her to rest! lol..perhaps i'll jus do some simple digging? but i wna try out spiking sio...cos after mrs chong told me and elaine abt spiking motion,we dint try. we kept everything and i went up to the hall le...haiyo..coach shld concentrate on training good setters first before he can actually make ppl spike right? a good spike needs a good set..
and i heard frm some ppl,that ms e, in the traditional dance,spinspinspin until blur. LOL! then she shakeshake her head like trying to clear her vision,then i imagine liao.is superduper cute la~ then mr i,wan take a pole to poke mr m ? O.O LOL! and their last so called 'action' was the 3 of them making a 'W' -.- plus last min then make out one lo, so got 'creativity'. lol.no la,u all shld dance wif the wadever face. xD or press the 'wadever' xuedao or got new one,press the 'laughing' xuedao on e~
lol. okay dno why once i start the ball,it keeps rolling. haha..alright thats alll for noww.

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today rlly my unlucky day sia.. ): i jus heard that mrs yip teaching the whole of sec 2.. WAD THE HELL! dun have ms eleora jiu suan liao..have same tcher again...stupid system sia.. swop la,we swop wif the sec 1'o9 leiii...if reallyreally cannot uh..then can ask other geog tcher mah..-.- dun tell me the sch oni got 2 geog tcher horh...
(edited once more)andandand,TODAY! wah lao...again i heard ms claudia is my lit tcher..AHHHH!!! can i like bang wall and die? .. -.- or else drop to NA oso can sia...wahlao..why 1e3 so unlucky de....?!?!?! first kena gk as ft,then kena mrs yip and geog then kena ms claudia as lit...WAHLAO EH.... pffffffffffffffffttt... sia la...1e3=1/3=13, thirteen again..wahlao unlucky la..TODAY IS OFFICIALLY THE WORST DAY!... stupid la horh.. -.-
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okayokay...now i feel so bad..cos was eating dinner alone,and like tot of it a few times.then is like im complaining abt my tchers when they are wrking for us..abit bad la horh..but sometimes its not our fault that we dun like the tcher okay...some is unreasonably went kisiao de horh.. -.-

i dint see sunlight.i nvr did.i hate those dark heavy clouds during the storms...it makes me feel so....cold and mayb alone? idk...im losing faith..a whole lot of it...i really wonder...where is God right now? ... ):



haiiiiiiiiiiiyo...today match...bullshit~
lost 11-25,both sets oso same points.dno is called lucky or unlucky... sian...i dno why the hell,when i practise serving,i can serve well,over,hard,accurate..but in the game,i dint serve over,neither was it hard,neither was it accurate..ARGH!... irritating llaaaaa! i tot today i can be slightly happier cos i serve over & hard..but hell no! i was even more disappointed wif myself la...fk.. i dint serve over in practise suan liao..but no nid i in practise serve nicenice,make myself happier abit,tot playing against st.hilda mayb got some hope to trash them over some points cos i serve hard (unless they receive nicely) then in the end,in the game,i not oni dint serve hard,it was fcking out court somemore...bullshit laa!.. wahlao,serious la,i was damn angry luh..if mrs chong hadn't change me in,i might not be that angry lo..im not blaming her okay..lol....... cos in the end,i oni got one chance to serve,and that,alr,made me seriouslyseriously angry... why in the f world dint i take that,GREAT,chance to serve nicely,and win over some points..then it might not be so pathetic alr lo...

alright...before that,in sch,i went for briefing? then after that went to serve.then ytd,serve/trained for abt 5 hrs,my shoulder the vein or sth,abit pain..then i jus kept serving,i wanted to make my serve consistent..then mrs chong came and the rest of the volleyballers came and we played match. then mrs chong,being a volleyballer herself,spiked (lightly) then ball and damn it was low..then i dare to slide on the floor as we were in the parade square and i wasnt wearing my knee guards..then i stretch as far as i can,and i fell on the floor,back first,quite hard..i knock the bottom of my spine on the grnd..and hell it was painful... then nvm,bus came,we left. then before us,we observe our two opponents playing against each other,qifa pri and chung cheng high(main). and WTH?! qifa pri's spikes are damn powerful...although their short,but they definitely can spike...ARGH!!! really hard and straight one can! i really feel like shouting out loud now la! really,my anger is indescribable... cos i tot of how freaking lousy my spike is...then we went out for warm up...so inspired by the qifa pri, i kept trying spike. then hit the ball till my vein,frm my neck all the way down to the end of my shoulders, hurts like fcking shit...cos ytd alr slightly pain le...then we observed more schools..then our turn...st.hilda's service are fcking powerful can...and due to our nervousness,many balls we dint receive properly..and they spiked many times after i was changed into the game and i dint even block any single ball,again. i feel like punching that fcking wall infront of me...im seriously very angry la..today,i cried is more of angry then sad..i was fuming...sorry elaine,i dint fulfill our promise to each other,i broke it..sorry.. then idk why mrs chong still wants to treat us to dinner...abit kuku? we lost so damn badly can... then nvm.she couldnt join us,so she passed the money to captain yy. then actually wanted to go pizza hut,no space.then they want go foodcourt? o.o then in the end,forgotten who suggested we go change the money,cos got 100 bucks and there are 19 of us. so each of us got $5 to go eat what we wanted... so yeah,ate long john and i jus realised,me and lamepartner{!} 's mo qi is veryvery good laaa~ lol! we chose the same thing inside our heart,then neither of us knew wad each other was thinking,but we were thinking of the same thing that we wanted to eat. then manymany other stuff,both of us wanted to tell the other something and the other wanted to say the same thing..wait abit confusing right..okay,for example,me and elaine were thinking/saw the same thing then i told her abt it first and she said she wanted to say the same thing.or sometimes is she say first..coolio.. lol..and yeah,lamepartner said that mayb we dint eat mr issac's lollipop,thats why we couldnt kick somebody's ass. LOL! and thanks for your lollipop! (:
p/s : that was wad naggy e (censor abit la horh,see i so good) said. lol! to go out and kick some ass.. xD
i wish there was a freaking punching bag infront of me right now...

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woah! dint i tell u me and lamepartner really xin ling xiang tong,she also talked abt our mo qi..haha i forgot what its called in english but elaine said it was heart telepathy (:

Ahhhhh!!! im very fucking angry right now la.... i reallyreally am man! i feel like punching the wall till either it gives way or my hand give way.. -.- best my hand bleeds till i die due to excessive lost of blood... -.- inside me is fuming now la..i really cant use words to describe how fucking angry i am,wif myself..why,during practise i can serve so wonderfully (at least to myself) but in the fucking match,i cannot..whywhywhy?!?! see,i still,as always,wants answers...fuck this world...



spent the whole day at sch today..self train. more of playing la. lol. so i met elaine at CWP and went mos eat. then when we finished eating,we talked. a whole lot of lame stuff and we laughed like shit.. i dun think i wld wna type it here ;X hehs!
then we kept laughing and joking all the way till sch...then we talked abt people being botak and wear wig,then some person wearing purple then *asterixasterix* :X ..then elaine said this person wearing tudong is sure botak,oni use the tudong to cover.. ops!racist.HAHA. okay,then talkedandtalked. then reached sch..then started to practice serving while waited for the da xiao jie..RhysGohHuiMing..say 1 plus come sch in the end,2 plus then come.. diao... then used 1+ hr to practise serving and i still could not make my service consistent(even after rhys came,we practiced serving for super damn long la.. ): ).. useless... then the malays came and played then we dint really play wif them.. jus did our own stuff..then rhys came and we continued playing. then practiced blocking,while elaine practiced spiking and rhys practiced setting. then so useless la me... cannot even block one single ball.. wth.. okay nvm..then i think i la dao my shoulder the gen.. dno wad its called in english ... lol. plus ytd i sprained my thigh joint.. so vulnerable....-.-
then they wanted to go hme at four plus then i dowan cos at hme is veh boring and...*asterixasterix*... so they pei me for a lil while more.. then i wanted to play 2 on 2 de..i wan test out me and elaine the mo qi again. cos twice during training,we play 2 on 2 then i set then she spiked. lol. but horh oni got the three of us.. how to play.. then siansian lo sit there talktalk then once in a while stand up serve..haha. then went hme..
hais...tmr against st. hilda. ytd against a newbie (like us) team,greenridge,oso cannot win le...st. hilda leh? then margaret say their sec ones are not as good as the upper sec..then we oso dno their upper sec how good.sekaly very good then the not as good is still good to us wad.. SIAN! .. i dowan play tmr.. ): pffffffft...
when will i be able to play good at something? ): i cant spike like elaine,i cant set like regina,i cant control the ball properly like many of them...sometimes i reallyreally wonder why God had put me into volleyball? can someone give me answers?...then each and everytime things dont go my way,i blame God,like wad the hell...wad in this fucking world am i thinking..then,i lose faith..jus like in the game ytd....and..it jus takes long for me to gain faith..i really want answers..i really do...JASONLONG! can u like dun go army.. ): i really wish there's time to talk to u..but,after all this while,i definately will not share so comfortably to you,cos of the many months u were in army... why u are a boy? lol..like i can choose lydat....hais...i demand answers!! ))): oh well,nth goes my way,so i can oni say,i want answers...i really do...pfffffft....what answers? idk...jus answers to make me understand this fucking world! sheesh! now tears cant express anything.. ):



people,my computer is finally back to normal.. well not really...its damn,,FRAGILE.. anytime it can..booom! gone. lol.and dad says he wna reformat the computer which means...MY FILES WLD ALL BE GONE! :O;O;O i want my files..i tried to transfer to my thumb drive those which i reallyreally wna keep. but my com is CRAZY.. i cant transfer ANYTHING... )): anyone got suggestions?... ):

yesterday.
i was damn happy.daddy bought a nikon D90 for ME! YAY!! woots! i finally have my dream camera! :D and he bought a printer which is damn cool.as in it prints fotos damn cool-ly! i printed one mosaic one..showed some ppl "tmr" and they oso think its cool.. haha. i really think its damn cool la! recommended to people to buy! :D want see sample come ask me. lol

alright..today...*sigh..
had match..at first the 3 musketeers said they cant come.. in the end they did.. thanks for ur support but we or rather me,kinda blew it up.. so first set...main six went in..i was shaking like shit sitting at the bench... cos margaret told me i wld be the first one to go in,replacing roseanne.. so elaine wanted to spike and shahhida wasnt alert and she dint catch the ball behind her.. so it dropped.. but the action was totally nice. no wonder she was the main spiker. lol. kambateh!
then second set,replaced roseanne. but i think margaret or rather coach,made a totally bad choice... okay,so first ball,opponent serve.. right towards me.. first ball,i missed...i anticipated it too near and then guess wad,i froze at that point.i dint move. i dint noe wad the fking shit was in my mind,if i had moved back,i would've catch the ball pretty nicely...hell..then continued,then got one ball,this girl frm greenridge dno hit or spike the ball,and i dint noe wad to do,so i jus anyhow hit and it was a sort of block.then the girl went either "wahlao" or "oi!" i heard "wahlao" but roseanne heard " oi!" so idk which one. then she hit back again. then i wanted to receive that ball but it was very low,then i stretched my leg and "OUCH!" i sort of sprained it.. then kept on holding on to my thigh joint..then mrs chong kept asking if i was alright. and i said yes.. well,i still could walk.so it shld be alright..then i missed another ball. it was back court(where i was standing) but i totally missed that fking ball...and it alr flew over the person infront of me the shoulders alr.. wthhhh!... urgh...then match over..we lost two sets...like wth...then ms eleora was sitting beside my bag..then when go went to get our bags,i dint even dare to look at her or the other two tan's'...no face to see them...i jus stared at my bag,afraid that my tears would come out..then i grabbed my towel and i had a spare one cos elaine passed one to me this morning as the previous training i forgot take hme.. then i pushed the towel to elaine..but she dint want..then mrs chong brought us outside to talk to us..i tot the 3 musketeers would've gone..so i kinda jus let out...but resisted cos i simply hate crying infront of ppl..then who knows,they suddenly appeared behind us...so fasterfaster wipe off..but it seems useless.cos the more mrs chong talk,the more i feel like doing so... so i tried to doge their view....then seeing my beloved 'her' crying beside me,makes me feeling like crying even more...but i really dint want to cry infront of anyone,as much as possible...especially tchers...cos of some pri sch incidents....then,went up the bus.sat beside elaine again.both of us dint speak..then again...
reached sch,decided to set up net and practice serving..then many balls dint go over,rather went downwards,looking more like a spike...cos i was jus venting all my frustrations on the ball...whacking it reallyreally hard...
tmr going sch again,self traing.more of playing then self train bah...but dno sch wad time close. people who knows please tell me..thanks..

p/s : i love captain aileen for switching my drill test to nxt wk! and oso ms eleora/helped me tell her. (:

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jasper : linked (:
alvinez : yes,u say life has its ups and downs,but my downs are simple TOOO long...ever since my major problem for this yr started,i have problems after problems..i nvr got an up every since then...alright twinnie,thank you twintwin..iloveyou too.
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JIAXIN, : alright,thanks (:
QwIeNiG : uh...okay wad..i think oni u boys dno how to appreciate literature. lol..jkjk.. but i read abit of the book,still okay wad...and i want watch cos it hlps me in my lit nxt yr can..lol..and linked.

sheesh...i hate myself for crying infront of people today...i really dint want to cry,especially infront of them..actually wanted to cry my heart out and jus let out everything..but after seeing them behind,i decided not to..cos i dont want to..i dun like it...least people say im trying to attract tcher's attention like THAT person..that yr,i wasnt fucking attracting anything okay,i was damn hurt that u said that..i treated u as a friend...my tears were fucking real,unlike some people's crocodile tears...so after that incident..it made me damn sensitive to shed a single tear infront of tchers...idk wad the hell was i doing,thinking...i froze,i dint receive any single proper ball,i dint help aida or sharifah to block any single ball like i was told to do so...then whats the use of being so fucking tall? makes me feel like an overgrown mutant... i fucking hate it...why are my genes lydat? i rather have an average height! whats so fucking nice about being tall? wna come and try being in my position? there are more disadvantages than advantages....i simple hate JADELONG! f.u.c.k....



i tink i owe an apology to many people.. to all whom i didn't trust/believe, to all those whom i provoked, to all those whom i betrayed or let down. i really am sorry. for the past few days, i have not been myself, i coludn't really control my emotions, and it got better of me. some of you had been really great to bear my tmeper. thanks alot, but still i'm sorry...



hmm,i think im not gna online that often alr (wad the hell..) cos my com has gone totally haywired. hopefully there's some miracle coming and my com will be back to its orignal shape. for now im using my dad's laptop. aww man...alright. i've got nth much to say...
and got anything PLEASE sms me. bcause without my com...i'll be bored to DEATH! seriously! D:D: yesyes,please alright! haha. and i cant lock my blog for now. cause i cant use my com alot,and i cant invite people.. sheesh.......
alright... please msg me alrightalright? :D keep me company. haha!



i changed skin. cause nth much suits my mood now.. okay actually alot. but i'd rather not show it.

and i might be posting least often on this blog cos i created another blog,which will not be revealed to anyone. cos i jus wna rant everything there and wished that it will not be known. hah. buhbye.



please stop it...i cherish mine and her friendship very much..i dowan any old dumb reason for us to break friendship. u were kinda stupid enuf to tell her...i really dno how to face her now..
if we were to break friendship because of u,i'll hate u forever...i mean it..cos i really love her alot,though i dont really show it,but when i say it,i mean it..fyi,she still loves you..and i dont intend to betray/let her down. because she has been a greatgreat friend to me.. this is also a kind of saying to ask u to give up. im sorry,i jus dowan to see her get hurt because of me....

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anybody who wants the foto for the anniversary dinner can get from me...

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people who wna kid wif me that they are angry wif me or hate me or wadever it is..please dont.i'll take it seriously. bcause my mind's in a chaos...i wont think alot abt it and will think as it is....

can i jus leave this fucking place? to somewher i noe nobody..then all problems would be gone..if oni it was that simple...why not jus disfigure me,then the people who likes me are those who go for my heart,not my face...
why is every single fucking problem coming to me? why the fuck has this have to happen?! why the fuck is it me?! ... im vexed enuf about the up coming competition and my performance alr sucked alot. not oni coach,but me myself alr have doubts about my capability... one word,i jus simply suck.i cant even handle such simple stuff... i really feel like crying,but i cant. my parents are there. and i noe they'll think that im stupid to vex over such stuff... i hate crying infront of my friends...will there even be a fucking place for me to jus let it out?... wad the fuck...
why am i jus so fucking useless? i cant seem to cool down for the competition.. i jus cant seem to get focused and think of nth else. why the fuck am i jus so sucky?... why isit that i am jus so useless?! why isit that i even can get scared now when the fucking competition is not even here..why? when i try to be positive,the other part of my mind jus seem to try to make me think negative..like wth..




training sucked today because of me...
and wth...my knee looks damn ugly.. ._."

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people who wna see the shandong fotos,mus see from my fone.its simply too much to upload (: then i'll tell my tale~ xD
im dead bored..somebody date me tmr! but im oso dead broke.. ._.

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this web is the fotos for shandong-beijing trip,uploaded by mrs ang with the sch camera.but ofcos mine is nicer hehs.cos got many funny ones she dint upload (: and dun laugh alright! i look retard in some fotos..
http://www.slide.com/r/8gwjJwHn7D9WSlUECvk-uZwFDAbq-Ib4?previous_view=lt_embedded_url


wad the hell was wrong with me? i couldnt concentrate,i couldnt fucking get myself in the game! why cant i jus swing my hand faster? why cant i jus kip my serve consistent? why cant i jus get my head and heart in the game!? if im gna continue lydis,im jus gna cause the whole team to lose,all because of me...if u dont continue to concentrate,or rather if u continue to be such a fucking loser,why not jus quit volleyball? since ur're not gna be serious,since u cant serve properly,since u cant even control your ball properly..wth...u cant spike,u cant serve,u cant do anything right,for wad in the first place u join volleyball? to make chr lose? and tears wont make u improve,u jus disgraced urself by crying infront of ur teamates and ur seniors!...
ur're jus fucking useless..ur faith in God is getting lesser and lesser each day...wad is wrong wif me?!...
oh God,please,i nvr wanted to leave ur house..i wna be the me again,the me who puts u first in everything,i want to! ...i jus dun feel confortable sharing wif KKMC...though they always ask me to talk to them if i have problems..but i jus dont....





HELLO! im back :D
hmm, the trip was okay la. lol..dint take alot of fotos for some sites cos i wasnt feeling well. but even so, there are dozens of fotos! LOL..andandand...eeeeeyer, teacher say got com to use but oso dun have.dun even have time to even use lo....then horh,alot of the nights oso no-visiting night. diao~
.okay nvm, but the worst thing is...I LOST MY REFLECTION BOOKLET! DD': then lydat i how to rmb everything.. ))))))))))): sian...why i so careless sia!
butbut GOOD NEWS! under thirteen i still can go! yay! thank u elmo for telling me :D:D:D:D alright.will try to recall....but some events kena mixed up cos got a few days they swopped the itenary.

day 1
it was aeroplane all the way...the first flight,frm singapore to china(forgot which part),i sat wif..guess who. ms lee and mr ho..and cos we are the middle seat then i siting at the aisle there.then luckily harisson change place wif mr danny if not i totally sitting in between teachers alr lo~ lol!then quite stressful lei,cos i sleep mah,den i wan take out my mirror see my hair,then frm my side view,i see ms lee head turning towards my direction,dno looking at me anot.then veh paiseh.then nvr see..
second flight,frm one of china's airport to shandong..then dis time oni got one aisle,then is three by three seats.. then guess wad sit near the same people again..== mr ho,mr danny,ms lee and harisson...i sit aisle seat again,and beside me is mr ho,beside him is ms lee.the on my left is mr danny and beside him is harisson..then at the airport..mr danny jus indirectly called himself a piece of shit. :O he say we(group 4) mus stick to him like flies sticking to shit. so we are the flies and he is the shit lo. xD then we kip calling him shit. :x got alot version. got xue te,shit,dabian. lol.
then went to hotel.my roomate is jody.then the rm veh big,then cold some more.makes it damn creepy can.. >.< after that briefing then *snores* alr. lol.

day 2
first thing in the morning,we went to dongfang bilingual experimental school.they welcomed us wif playing the band and all sorts.then we sat in a dno wad rm then they started all the talking,speeches and all that..then got some performance.then we started "lessons" they weren't really lessons la,they talked abt lotus.damn boring la,then tcher speak mono-tone one...-.- then after that is music lessons,cos er hu.then the tcher say "ming bai ma?" then jody(the biggest joker),kip nodding her head,funnily.even the tcher oso at there am chio..lol! then got our very own CHR er hu gao shou perform and she's none other than my beloved captain! wang yunyi :D haha..then after the sch,we went to the da ming hu.then i was joking arnd wif captain and the rest la.then cos this trip i noe alot people mah,then if orathai they all suddenly go missing(which is normally the opposite) then i can anyhow folo one grp. lol. cos i kip leaving orathai they all the go take foto mah..then they walkwalkwalk,then dno go where liao..then after da ming hu,we went to the fu rong street and orathai and rachaelQuek ate alot of sausages.they were nice.i ate two. but they ate more :O then we went to the book store.then we tot all chinese book.then jus went up to the Cd section.orathai wanted to buy the photoshop stuff.but its like chinese. lol! then in the end jus stand arnd the entrance talking and waiting for tcher to come..then after that we went to this..hmmm idk wad isit called.is like u sit there drink tea and eat snacks and watch some chinese show,at in people come perform..aiya,idk how to say la..lol.then is like,i at the starting dno wad they talking abt.then at the ending is super damn funny can. lol..

day 3
went to the sch again.this time had real lessons..damn bored can,their accent is really non-understandable. i cant understand a single word the tcher is saying.. -.- then i ended up listening to songs.. :x *shhhh! i used my jacket collar to cover. then we had science and math lessons.and omg,their math paper is in chinese(okay like obviously),and if i were sitting for such an exam,i will die on the spot -.- the two terrors for now,merged tgt for a paper..one word,die-able. x) then after the sch,we went for a lil break,then we climbed this hill that's nearby the sch.i forgot the name alr ;x then climb,talk,climb. then cos i go toilet den they alr went off(as in got tcher go wif us) then i chiong-ed all the way to them.which was kinda far and i was running on half steps half road.then the air is super dry and cold,then i felt super damn breathless.then my throat hurts like shyt. so okay,nvm.then climbclimb,jody dno go wher,i assume racheal and orathai at the front.then climb all the way to the top,then mr hu says mt taishan is 3-4 times of this..then alr got alot ppl breathless liao. lol.then after that went dwn again.then this time,i assume rachy and orathai are at the back,cos i was walking wif yunyi,gareth,zixuan they all la.then after that,i walk slower and slower,wanted to wait for them.then i looked back,no sign of them.then i look dwn...sia la! so far below alr..diao! then nvm,continued walking wif them.then after that we went back to the sch.i cant rmb wad we did.but after sch,we went for family visit.and they were very welcoming and all sorts.and our dear lil jasper kena bullied, xD haha!he was being suffocated by a giant toy dog? o.o... then went back hotel,brief and *snores*

day 4
we travel to qufu and went to the Confucius temple, mansion and forestry.then nth much to elaborate on this..then we took like half the day.then after that went to the hotel..this day like got nth much to say.cos cant rmb much :x

day 5
we went to the qufu experimental school and went to this rm,then got briefing or sth la,then followed them wif their lessons.then the first lesson was P.E then jus runrunrun.then nxt was english lessons,then we all tot it was gna be fun..then in the end,all of us ended up feeling sleepy.they are like learning wad we learn in lower primary english :x then it was damndamn bored...zzz...then after that we went back to the rm,watched tom and jerry? o.o okay then nvm,cos we went back to the rm a few times before then jerome and rachel (2e1) they kip playing the piano. and i SWEAR i wna learn piano!! :O:O is like damn nice can.last time i had oni 3 lessons cos the piano tcher cheat money one.. -.- then stopped learning. i wna learn musician,cannon in C,cannon in D! :D:D very nice wor..then wow,rachel can compose songs man! :O then the songs still is very nice one can! lol. then after that went to watch the basketball match between CHR and the qufu.then ofcos,CHR won.cos can see qufu the players their sooting very lousy..lol. then after that..hmm...oh,we travelled to taian.

day 6
this day was one of the main reason why i wanted to come..to climb mt taishan..is like,we started to climb and its all steps.then climbclimbclimb,alr very breathless..then u noe wad,we saw a sign saying "climbing starts here" then i wad like.. -.- ...then wad have a been doing for the past minutes? .... okay nvm,then climb taishan.then cos i got bronchitis before,so very easily can get second time.then is like that time i got flu,then idk why,i jus cannot breathe properly..but i keeping telling myself "if u're gna give up here,you're jus a big sucky loser,then u for wad come to this trip?" then i kept looking downwards,looking at each step i take.and at the same time,telling myself "i can do this because God is wif me,because God loves me,because i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".and so one step by one step,i made it.then ms susanna kip asking me to look up,but i dowan.cos leta i look up then i see how much more i nid climb then i'll go "huh.....still got so long...." then i sure even more difficult to climb.and plus,i have been doing that the past few hours alr. lol. then at the top,not really the top yet,i wasnt feeling very well...then when we continued to climb up to the sumit,i got cramp.rachy was climbing wif me.then i faster sit dwn...aiyoyo,why i so lousy one? ..-.- so fast here pain there pain,so weak some more... -.- then reached the top,and then took some pictures and went dwn to where the cable car was and went dwn to the mountain foot..then took bus,went for lunch.then after that,ehh...forgot le.

day 7
we woke up damn early today,like 5 plus.cos nid to fly to beijing.then had breakfast and all that.then fly there.then our flight seat right,every body will sure sian mu one.is usual,3 by 3 then oni got one aisle.then seat is lydat :
18A : rachyQuek
18B : me
18C : jody
(aisle)
18D : orathai
18E : jeremy
18F : harisson (i think)
cool right! :D then for the whole flight(abt 40 min) me and rachy were talking,gossiping mayb? :P and she damn cute sia,she wan bluff me say she ask zx sth,then actual fact is i was standing right behind them and there's a big gap between them and i can perfectly hear wad they talking. LOL. then after reach beijing,we went to the tian an men guang chang,then got the mao zhe tong the portrait there SUPER big,then inside is the forbidden city..seeing the forbidden city and visiting all these is oso the main reason why i went.BUT! mdm koh show us the picture of the forbidden city is NOTHING like wad we see there can! -.- then is like all the building look the same so take the foto liao is jus like standing at one and taking alot of times. after that,we dno go where then went for dinner at this super sucky restaurant.its damn smokey cos damn alot people smoke there.. -.- leta got cancer then u noe uh...then me,captain,jay chou(let me intro,this started during the first few days of the trip,Rachel(2e1) wad called jay chou,yunyi was 'his' reporter,amos was chai yi ling,and jasper was chai yi ling(amos) sister.) cannot take it,then captain stomach pain,jay chou some what the same,then me is i kip coughing and i feel like vomiting..then ms tay give us the ru yi you to smell,then we join the bballers at the second story instead of wif the rest of them at the first story.then i think i smell too much of the ru yi you then i got headache.then at the olympic water cube and birdnest,i damndamn cold.i wear my own jacket(which is quite thick) and add on the sch jacket.then i still felt damndamn shity-ly cold.then everybody else was taking pictures and dint even look cold AT ALL..i guess it was cos i wasnt feeling well bah...then i jus anyhowanyhow take pictures of the olympic venues den i jus stand there look at ppl take foto..then went back hotel got KFC supper..

day 8
we went to the great wall of china.then we took somewhat a thing that looks like a roller coster then went up to great wall.then i tot we're gna have alot of time then we climb till quite far.then in the end,oni have veh lil time lo...then jus walk a lil bit oni.plus it was freakingly packed.. -.- then after that we took the "roller coster" back dwn.which ofcos was more fun cos the up one jus goes up and up.. lol.then is like the toilet damn sucky la..this type of sight seeing place have such a toilet. i shall describe ^^ if u dowan read the skip the nxt paragraph..

okay,first its damndamn stinky.then got some cubicle the doors are broken and so no doors,then the people jus blatantly do their business can! omg! then we all faster turn away. -.- then got 2 cubicle damndamn disgusting.one is full of shit,one is full of blood.. -.- i oni saw the shit-ed one. is like the whole squatting pan is being shit-ed and the person can even shit outside the pan..clever right.lol

okay,i'll continue.then after great wall,we went to this place,den we sat 2 by 2 in a trishaw and cycled around this hai called shi sha hai (well,thats wad the person riding the trishaw said).then after that,we went to a mall and shop. but there seriously got nth to buy as souvenirs one lor,all there is like bugis lydat,one stall one stall,then sell the stuff s'pore oso have de. then i oni bought a bat-man-buckle belt for bro and mayb the keychain for mum. lol,i seriously dno wad i can get for dad.and i bought this headfone,i damn love it alot,its white.then got black oso.then i still have money left,then me and orathai bargain(the place allowed to bargain) then orathai not enuf money then wanted to go lend frm daniel they all or sth..idk.then after that she say u buy lo.then i tot she dowan le,then i bought the white one.which is the one she wanted.then after that she saw jeremy and borrowed 100 rmb frm him and went to buy the headphone,then she bought the black one cos no more white.and guess wad,daniel's one is green but frm singapore and he bought it for SGD $33 and i bought it for SGD $18+ 19+ oni,i zhuan dao le. then we procceded to the airport and OFF,we're back in s'pore! :D
mayb the fotos i will put in like photo bucket and elaborate in another post.this one is simply too long alr. oops.. :X

goodbye..stay tuned for the nxt episode of, "jadie's adventure to Shandong-beijing!" or u wan listen live oso can :D

book wif my manager,long ruiyi,for a time slot, ima busy woman xD hehs! jus kidding!