training sucked today because of me...
and wth...my knee looks damn ugly.. ._."

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people who wna see the shandong fotos,mus see from my fone.its simply too much to upload (: then i'll tell my tale~ xD
im dead bored..somebody date me tmr! but im oso dead broke.. ._.

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this web is the fotos for shandong-beijing trip,uploaded by mrs ang with the sch camera.but ofcos mine is nicer hehs.cos got many funny ones she dint upload (: and dun laugh alright! i look retard in some fotos..
http://www.slide.com/r/8gwjJwHn7D9WSlUECvk-uZwFDAbq-Ib4?previous_view=lt_embedded_url


wad the hell was wrong with me? i couldnt concentrate,i couldnt fucking get myself in the game! why cant i jus swing my hand faster? why cant i jus kip my serve consistent? why cant i jus get my head and heart in the game!? if im gna continue lydis,im jus gna cause the whole team to lose,all because of me...if u dont continue to concentrate,or rather if u continue to be such a fucking loser,why not jus quit volleyball? since ur're not gna be serious,since u cant serve properly,since u cant even control your ball properly..wth...u cant spike,u cant serve,u cant do anything right,for wad in the first place u join volleyball? to make chr lose? and tears wont make u improve,u jus disgraced urself by crying infront of ur teamates and ur seniors!...
ur're jus fucking useless..ur faith in God is getting lesser and lesser each day...wad is wrong wif me?!...
oh God,please,i nvr wanted to leave ur house..i wna be the me again,the me who puts u first in everything,i want to! ...i jus dun feel confortable sharing wif KKMC...though they always ask me to talk to them if i have problems..but i jus dont....