please stop it...i cherish mine and her friendship very much..i dowan any old dumb reason for us to break friendship. u were kinda stupid enuf to tell her...i really dno how to face her now..
if we were to break friendship because of u,i'll hate u forever...i mean it..cos i really love her alot,though i dont really show it,but when i say it,i mean it..fyi,she still loves you..and i dont intend to betray/let her down. because she has been a greatgreat friend to me.. this is also a kind of saying to ask u to give up. im sorry,i jus dowan to see her get hurt because of me....

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anybody who wants the foto for the anniversary dinner can get from me...

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people who wna kid wif me that they are angry wif me or hate me or wadever it is..please dont.i'll take it seriously. bcause my mind's in a chaos...i wont think alot abt it and will think as it is....

can i jus leave this fucking place? to somewher i noe nobody..then all problems would be gone..if oni it was that simple...why not jus disfigure me,then the people who likes me are those who go for my heart,not my face...
why is every single fucking problem coming to me? why the fuck has this have to happen?! why the fuck is it me?! ... im vexed enuf about the up coming competition and my performance alr sucked alot. not oni coach,but me myself alr have doubts about my capability... one word,i jus simply suck.i cant even handle such simple stuff... i really feel like crying,but i cant. my parents are there. and i noe they'll think that im stupid to vex over such stuff... i hate crying infront of my friends...will there even be a fucking place for me to jus let it out?... wad the fuck...
why am i jus so fucking useless? i cant seem to cool down for the competition.. i jus cant seem to get focused and think of nth else. why the fuck am i jus so sucky?... why isit that i am jus so useless?! why isit that i even can get scared now when the fucking competition is not even here..why? when i try to be positive,the other part of my mind jus seem to try to make me think negative..like wth..