people,my computer is finally back to normal.. well not really...its damn,,FRAGILE.. anytime it can..booom! gone. lol.and dad says he wna reformat the computer which means...MY FILES WLD ALL BE GONE! :O;O;O i want my files..i tried to transfer to my thumb drive those which i reallyreally wna keep. but my com is CRAZY.. i cant transfer ANYTHING... )): anyone got suggestions?... ):

yesterday.
i was damn happy.daddy bought a nikon D90 for ME! YAY!! woots! i finally have my dream camera! :D and he bought a printer which is damn cool.as in it prints fotos damn cool-ly! i printed one mosaic one..showed some ppl "tmr" and they oso think its cool.. haha. i really think its damn cool la! recommended to people to buy! :D want see sample come ask me. lol

alright..today...*sigh..
had match..at first the 3 musketeers said they cant come.. in the end they did.. thanks for ur support but we or rather me,kinda blew it up.. so first set...main six went in..i was shaking like shit sitting at the bench... cos margaret told me i wld be the first one to go in,replacing roseanne.. so elaine wanted to spike and shahhida wasnt alert and she dint catch the ball behind her.. so it dropped.. but the action was totally nice. no wonder she was the main spiker. lol. kambateh!
then second set,replaced roseanne. but i think margaret or rather coach,made a totally bad choice... okay,so first ball,opponent serve.. right towards me.. first ball,i missed...i anticipated it too near and then guess wad,i froze at that point.i dint move. i dint noe wad the fking shit was in my mind,if i had moved back,i would've catch the ball pretty nicely...hell..then continued,then got one ball,this girl frm greenridge dno hit or spike the ball,and i dint noe wad to do,so i jus anyhow hit and it was a sort of block.then the girl went either "wahlao" or "oi!" i heard "wahlao" but roseanne heard " oi!" so idk which one. then she hit back again. then i wanted to receive that ball but it was very low,then i stretched my leg and "OUCH!" i sort of sprained it.. then kept on holding on to my thigh joint..then mrs chong kept asking if i was alright. and i said yes.. well,i still could walk.so it shld be alright..then i missed another ball. it was back court(where i was standing) but i totally missed that fking ball...and it alr flew over the person infront of me the shoulders alr.. wthhhh!... urgh...then match over..we lost two sets...like wth...then ms eleora was sitting beside my bag..then when go went to get our bags,i dint even dare to look at her or the other two tan's'...no face to see them...i jus stared at my bag,afraid that my tears would come out..then i grabbed my towel and i had a spare one cos elaine passed one to me this morning as the previous training i forgot take hme.. then i pushed the towel to elaine..but she dint want..then mrs chong brought us outside to talk to us..i tot the 3 musketeers would've gone..so i kinda jus let out...but resisted cos i simply hate crying infront of ppl..then who knows,they suddenly appeared behind us...so fasterfaster wipe off..but it seems useless.cos the more mrs chong talk,the more i feel like doing so... so i tried to doge their view....then seeing my beloved 'her' crying beside me,makes me feeling like crying even more...but i really dint want to cry infront of anyone,as much as possible...especially tchers...cos of some pri sch incidents....then,went up the bus.sat beside elaine again.both of us dint speak..then again...
reached sch,decided to set up net and practice serving..then many balls dint go over,rather went downwards,looking more like a spike...cos i was jus venting all my frustrations on the ball...whacking it reallyreally hard...
tmr going sch again,self traing.more of playing then self train bah...but dno sch wad time close. people who knows please tell me..thanks..

p/s : i love captain aileen for switching my drill test to nxt wk! and oso ms eleora/helped me tell her. (:

tag replies :

jasper : linked (:
alvinez : yes,u say life has its ups and downs,but my downs are simple TOOO long...ever since my major problem for this yr started,i have problems after problems..i nvr got an up every since then...alright twinnie,thank you twintwin..iloveyou too.
shiwei : alright..
JIAXIN, : alright,thanks (:
QwIeNiG : uh...okay wad..i think oni u boys dno how to appreciate literature. lol..jkjk.. but i read abit of the book,still okay wad...and i want watch cos it hlps me in my lit nxt yr can..lol..and linked.

sheesh...i hate myself for crying infront of people today...i really dint want to cry,especially infront of them..actually wanted to cry my heart out and jus let out everything..but after seeing them behind,i decided not to..cos i dont want to..i dun like it...least people say im trying to attract tcher's attention like THAT person..that yr,i wasnt fucking attracting anything okay,i was damn hurt that u said that..i treated u as a friend...my tears were fucking real,unlike some people's crocodile tears...so after that incident..it made me damn sensitive to shed a single tear infront of tchers...idk wad the hell was i doing,thinking...i froze,i dint receive any single proper ball,i dint help aida or sharifah to block any single ball like i was told to do so...then whats the use of being so fucking tall? makes me feel like an overgrown mutant... i fucking hate it...why are my genes lydat? i rather have an average height! whats so fucking nice about being tall? wna come and try being in my position? there are more disadvantages than advantages....i simple hate JADELONG! f.u.c.k....